This quote describes how I feel today, and everyday for that matter, in regards to infertility. When people say to me "I don't know how you do it" or ask "how do you stay so strong?" Well, this is my answer. I don't have a choice. I don't choose this. I can't just flip the light switch to off and say, "Okay, I'm done now! This infertility thing was so fun while it lasted but I'll just go ahead and take that newborn girl, actually make that two, next Tuesday around 2:30pm. I'll take them with a side of curly hair, one with blue eyes, one with green, extra chub on the side, light on the crying, hold any health issues. Please and thank you!"
People that don't struggle with infertility don't know just how lucky they are. Sometimes people close say completely the wrong thing to me or around me... I just smile and don't clue them into the hurt, and occasional anger, going on inside me in reaction to what they said. Today I feel pissed at the world but seeing this picture posted on good ol' Facebook helped me realize that I am strong, though not fully by choice. Tomorrow will be a better day and I will feel not so moody and pissed off:)
I have decided soon I will write a "what not to say to people struggling with infertility post" to hopefully help people be somewhat more understanding and to also keep things from being said that can set off a hormonal infertile at any given moment. :)
For now, that is all.